Visited by Alien at the end of 2006
Sunday 11.01 pm
From Raymond’s desk,
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Today is the last day of 2006. So, I would like to take this opportunity to greet all my loyal readers a very Happy and Prosperous New Year and to share some of my alien feelings.
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This afternoon, I planned to do something meaningful before the year end. I actually planned to write down my plans and goals for next year. This time I’m going to be very specific. I would lay out all the Whats and Hows.
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Besides, I also planned to spend whole night to do some make over for one of my salesletter since I do not have any activities/appointment. (In fact, I do not have any friend to go out with)
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However, when I reached home and sat in front of my computer. I totally did not have mood to do anything. I was thinking, Hey, is this the way I am going to spend my New Year Eve?
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All of the sudden, a strong negative feeling grew from within and spread like virus. I feel guilty for the way I treat myself. I spend all my time for my job and business. I rarely spend some quality time for myself. Lonely is never a word in my dictionary but the feeling pay me a visit without being invited.
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After checking some mails. I don’t know what to do. I don’t have mood to do anything. I feel so bad. I can hardly breath. I feel so confuse for the feeling that was sprouting within me. I don’t know exactly what is/are the cause(s).
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At this very moment, Wei Sea, a former coursemate of mine appeared in my MSN and chat with me. We chat for a while. She gave me some valuable advices. Then I excuse myself and went for my dinner. While waiting for my dinner to arrive, I did some soul searching. I tried to find the root of my problem.
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After the soul searching, I ‘guess’ the root of my problem is, I have not yet made any great achievement in 2006. I am still trapped in the rat race. I believe this is where the pressure came from. This is the cause that caused me hard to breath. I only have 4 years left to my retirement and I have achieved NOTHING so far.
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What have I done this year? Well, I moved to a new neighbourhood, still stucking in a court case, built a website which is only break even with the operating cost and invested a huge amount of money for my personal and business development.
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I can say that I’ve done a lot in building a better future in my life but I can’t see the result yet. In another words, My achievement = ZERO.
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So, one of my goal for 2007 is to free myself from this nasty rat race by 31st Dec 2007. Hopefully, tomorrow I’ll be able to work out the plan of what and how.
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Now, I wanna go to bed and get a good sleep to get rid of all my negative thoughts, which is very harmful element in my plan.
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Hopefully tomorrow will be a great day for me.
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Thank you for spending your precious time to read this rubbish.
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Goodnight.
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Happy and Prosperous New Year
Raymond
